Yesterday

Datum; 2008-05-18 Tid; 22:56:46
I just can't believe you're gone, still waiting for morning to come.
I wanna see if the sun will rise even without you by my side.
When we had so much in store, tell me what is it i'm reaching for.
When we're through building memories, I'll hold yesterday in my heart. 

You can take tomorrow and the plans we made.
You can take the music that we'll never play.
All the broken dreams, take everything.
Just take it away, but you can never have yesterday. 
You can take the future that we'll never know.
You can take the places that we said we would go.
All the broken dreams, take everything.
Just take it away, but you can never have yesterday.

You always used to stay, I should be thankful for everyday.
Heaven knows what the future holds, or at least how the story goes.
But i never believed it 'til now.
I know i'll see you again i'm sure. No it's not selfish to ask for more.
One more night, one more day, one more smile on you face,
but you can't take yesterday.

I thought our days would last forever. But it wasn't our destiny.
'Cause in my mind, we had so much time.
But i was so wrong.
Now I can believe that.
I can still find the strength in the moments we made. 
When looking back on yesterday.

When you're gone.

Datum; 2008-04-02 Tid; 18:30:48
When you're gone - finaste musikvideon ever. Ni hittar den här http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=otMB3WVQNVg

John Mayer <3

Datum; 2008-03-12 Tid; 17:46:41
John Mayer är den mest fantastiska artisten i världshistorien. Jävlar, hans musik är ju mysigast i världen.

I'm so alive. I'm so enlighted I can barely suvive. A night in my mind.
I've got a plan, I'm gonna find out just how boring I am. And have a good time.
Cause ever since I tried, trying not to find, every little meaning in my life.
It's been fine, I've been cool, With my new golden rule.

Numb is the new deep, done with the old me. And talk is the same cheap it's been.

I'm a new man, I wear a new cologne and you wouldn't know me if your eyes were closed.
I know what you'll say; "this wont last longer than the rest of the day".
But you're wrong this time. You're wrong.

Numb is the new deep. Done with the old me. I'm over the analyzing tonight.
Stop trying to figure it out, it will only bring you down.
You know, I used to be the back porch poet with my book of rhymes.
Always open, knowing all the time I'm probably never gonna find he perfect rhyme for heavier things.

Take tomorrow.

Datum; 2008-02-17 Tid; 14:53:57
You got lost, for a while. You've been trying to find a smile.
You got stood up, then you fell down, and when you needed, there was no one around.
You loved the previews and hate the movie.
You scream at the screen, "Something move me!"
Before you start to fade away.

Give me all your fear, throw it all away.
And think about the good things, no matter what they say.
We'll take tomorrow baby, one day at a time.

You just stare into space, you found love but it got erased.
You're on the road with all the stoplights, and you're too afraid to turn the wrong from right.
You ate your soul and it made you fat, starve yourself from everything else
that makes you completely full.

So you run, so you hide, and you watched as they die.
They all fell, you could fall too,
or you could sew your wings and try to fly right through.



Det känns okej.
Take tomorrow.

What hurts the most...

Datum; 2008-02-10 Tid; 22:01:54



I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me.
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out.
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though goin on with you gone
still upsets me.
There are days every now and again I pretend i'm okay, but that's not what gets me.

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say, and watching you walk away.
Never knowing, what could have been.
And not seeing that loving you is what I was trying to do.

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go, but i'm doing it.
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and i'm alone.
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret.
But I know if I could do it over I would trade,
give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken.

Got over you.

Datum; 2008-02-05 Tid; 19:19:09
Lyssna på Over You.

Now that it's all said and done.
I can't believe you were the one to build me up and tear me down.
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left, just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well I never saw it coming. I should have started running a long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you. More than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure, I guess it's really over. I'm finally gettin' better.
Now I'm picking up the pieces,
from spending all of these years putting my heart back together.
I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls. Dragged the memories down the hall.
Packed your bags and walked away. There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut, a lot of other's opened up.
So did my eyes so I could see, that you didn't want the best for me.

Better in time.

Datum; 2008-02-04 Tid; 17:21:07
It says it all. It all... Lyssna på Better in time

It's been the longest winter without you. I didn't know where to turn to.
See somehow I can't forget you. After all that we've been through.
Going, coming, thought I heard a knock. Who's there? No one.
Thinking that I deserve it, now I realise that I really didn't know.
If you didn't notice you mean everything.
Quickly I'm learning to love again. All I know is I'm gon' be ok.

Thought I couldn't live without you. It's gonna hurt when it heals too.
It'll all get better in time. And even though I really love you.
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to. It'll all get better in time.

I couldn't turn on the TV, without something there to remind me.
Was it all that easy to just put aside your feelings?

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh. Hurt my feelings but that's the path.
I believe in, and I know that time will heal it.
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything.
Quickly I'm learning to love again. All I know is I'm gon' be ok.

Since there's no more you and me. It's time I let you go.
So I can be free and live my life how it should be.
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you.
Yes I will.

Thought I couldn't live without you. It's gonna hurt when it heals too.
It'll all get better in time. And even though I really love you.
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to. It'll all get better in time.

Too close for comfort?

Datum; 2008-02-04 Tid; 17:15:31
I never meant the things I said to make you cry. Can I say I'm sorry?
It's hard to forget and yes I regret all these mistakes.
I don't know why you're leaving me but I know you must have your reasons.
There's tears in your eyes, I watch as you cry. But it's getting late.

Was I invading in on your secrets? Was I too close for comfort?
You're pushing me out when I'm wanting in.
What was I just about to discover? When I got too close for comfort?
Driving you home. Guess I'll never know.

Remember when we scratched our names into the sand and you told me you loved me.
But now that I find that you've changed your mind, I'm lost for words.
And everything I feel for you I wrote down on one piece of paper.
The one in your hand. You won't understand how much it hurts to let you go..

All this time you've been telling me lies
Hidden in bags that are under your eyes
And when I asked you I knew I was right
But if you turn your back on me now when I need you most.
But you chose to let me down.
Won't you think about what you're about to do to me
And back down...

What was I just about to discover? When I got too close for comfort.
Driving you home. I guess I'll never know...

Jag slog ihjäl min älsklings nya älskling - Svensk Pop

Datum; 2008-02-04 Tid; 01:36:29

Jag slog ihjäl min älsklings nya älskling med hammare yxa & sax. Så nu sitter hon och gråter men jag tror att hon förlåter mej strax. Hon sa själv att "de e sånt man kommer över". Hon kan komma till mig om hon behöver.
Jag slog ihjäl min älsklings nya älskling med motorsåg, kofot & kniv. Och beräknar man kallt så finns bara ett alternativ; Att hon kommer tillbaka igen, så jag slipper skada några andra män.
Åhh det var hon som sa att det kan ta ett tag. Ja, det kan ta nån da'. Men sen blir allting bra. För jag är inte den som vill förstöra... Men vad annat kunde man göra?

Jag slog ihjäl min älsklings nya älskling med taggtråd, spade & spik. Och det ordnar nog sig när det står mellan mig och hans lik. Då e valet ganska uppenbart. Jag bara hoppas hon glömmer honom snart.

Jag slog ihjäl min älsklings nya älskling med slägga & sekatör. För hon va ju min att han kom kan jag inte rå för. Han var nog snäll men han kunde inte skonas. Nu går jag och väntar att vi ska försonas.
För det var hon som sa att det kan ta ett tag. Ja, det kan ta nån da'. Men sen blir allting bra. För jag är inte den som vill förstöra... Men vad annat kunde man göra?

Jag slog ihjäl min älsklings nya älskling med ångvält och med gevär. Det kanske låter brutalt men det är normalt om man är kär. Då ställer man ju alltid till med såna skandaler. Som att råka slå ihjäl sina rivaler.
Jag slog ihjäl min älsklings nya älskling med järnrör och tegelsten. Och med en mortel och stöt så bröt jag alla hans ben. Jag krossade skallen så att blodet började stänka. Hon lär behöva mig nu när hon är änka.
Jag sprängde bort min älsklings nya älskling med bomber & dynamit. Bbara för att han gjorde nåt han inte borde med flit. Och han fattar väl själv att han måste straffas. Jag bara hoppas att jag inte haffas


Jag tror på dig.

Datum; 2008-02-04 Tid; 01:12:41

Dom frågar hur jag mår, och om kärleken består, och hur jag vet att isen bär. Och dom, talar till mig som ett barn, dom vill jaga mig ur stan. För att jag ändrade min plan. För att jag trodde på dig. När morgonen är här, vart på jorden jag än är, du är aldrig långt ifrån min hand.


Släpp mig aldrig med din blick, vill gå den väg du gick och aldrig nånsin se tillbaks. Allt det som du gett till mig, ingenting kan mäta sig, för jag tror på dig. Jag tror på dig när vintern smälter till sommar. Jag tror på dig när det vita blir till svart. Jag tror på dig även när dom räknar ut mig, om än marker viker, om än vännerna sviker. Ingenting kan få mig gå tillbaks.


Du, plöj en väg för mig, låt den öppna sig mot evighetens starka hav. Du, ingen smärta tar på mig, ingen storm kan stoppa mig, jag vet berg kan flytta sig. För jag tror på dig.


My story

Datum; 2008-01-23 Tid; 21:31:13
See my eyes, don't see what i see.
Touch my tounge, don't know what tastes good to me.
It's the human connection that keeps us apart.
Everybody's got a story that can break you heart.

Just like a tattoo.

Datum; 2008-01-22 Tid; 17:20:02
No matter what you say about love, I keep coming back for more. Keep my hand in the fire, sooner or later, I get what I'm asking for. No matter what you say about life. I learn every time I bleed. The truth is a stranger, soul is in danger. I gotta let my spirit be free, to admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind. Sorry, but I've gotta be strong and leave you behind.

I can't waste time so give me a moment. I realize nothing is broken. No need to worry about everything I've done. Now living every second like it is my last one. Don't look back got a new direction. I loved you once, needed protection. You're still a part of everything I do. You're on my heart just like a tattoo. Just like a tattoo. I'll always have you

If I live every moment. Won't change any moment. Still a part of me in you.
I will never regret you.

Lyssna på Tattoo här

Kär

Datum; 2008-01-18 Tid; 00:20:01
De senaste veckorna har jag ju lyssnat som en jävla dåre på Bleeding Love med Leona Lewis. Jag blev så himla glad när jag lyssnade på den, så himla uppåt. Men nu är det förändringar på g, en ny favoritlåt. En ny låt som gör mig glad, och uppåt och peppad. Jag är kär! Jag är kär i den låten! Alla hennes låtar är underbara. Precis vad jag behöver.
Texten säger a l l t .



It's time to let you go. It's time to say goodbye.
There's no more excuses. No more tears to cry.
There's been so many changes. I was so confused.
All along you were the one. All the time I never knew.
I want you to be happy. You're my best friend.
But it's so hard to let you go now. All that could have been.
I'll always have the memories. She'll always have you.
Fate has a way of changing. Just when you dont want it to.
Throw away the chains. Let love fly away. Till love comes again.
I'll be okay.

Amanda Marshall - I'll Be Okay
Amanda Marshall - Everybody's Got a Story

Amanda Marshall - Beautiful Goodbye
Amanda Marshall - Trust Me
Amanda Marshall - Let's Get Lost

"Everybody's got a story that can break your heart"

I thought angels did not lie..

Datum; 2008-01-11 Tid; 02:24:27
He was alone in the room and somehow I knew that in time I would fall. For that look on his face, what I do to embrace you tonight, and watch the dark turn in to light. I can't believe I was really lying next to you.
If time could stand still, I'd hold you near me now and for always. And know what I'd give to help you to live in my life. But you left without saying goodbye.
If you change your mind, remember I been waiting here. Always.
Don't stay away too long. I can hardly stand it.

Angel he looks like an angel. Take me to heaven with you when you go.
Angel got to be an angel. You can't leave me, baby, on my own.
Fly angel fly. Let go and so will I. He said I wont leave you in heaven. I thought angels did not lie.


Det är svårt att förklara en känsla. Så jag ska inte ens försöka. Men det skulle varit så mycket roligare om du varit med ikväll. Eftersom det var din musik och så. Om du varit där, lycklig, som bara vi kunde va. Jag tänkte på dig varje sekund..

Still hurting

Datum; 2007-12-25 Tid; 14:08:33
Jamie is over and Jamie is gone. Jamie's decided it's time to move on. Jamie has new dreams he's building upon. And I'm still hurting.
Jamie arrived at the end of the line. Jamie's convinced that the problems are mine. Jamie is probably feeling just fine. And I'm still hurting.

What about lies, Jamie? What about things that you swore to be true? What about you, Jamie? What about you?

Jamie is sure something wonderful died. Jamie decides it's his right to decide. Jamie's got secrets he doesn't confide. And I'm still hurting.
Go and hide and run away. Run away, run and find something better. Go and ride the sun away. Run away like it's simple. Like it's right...

Give me a day, Jamie. Bring back the lies hang them back on the wall. Maybe I'd see how you could be so certain that we had no chance at all.

Jamie is over and where can I turn? Covered with scars I did nothing to earn.Maybe there's somewhere a lesson to learn. But that wouldn't change the fact. That wouldn't speed the time. Once the foundation's cracked. And I'm
still hurting.


Lyssna på Still hurting här
Låten som passar så jävla bra in just nu...

Goodbye letter

Datum; 2007-12-24 Tid; 22:21:14
Theres a letter on the table, I've never seen it there before. I dont have to read it, cause i already know.
It's been a long time coming. And iv'e been awake for days. I know we can make it but things have got to change.
Your words say its hopeless, but i know theres more between the lines.
Goodbye. Is this how you want it? I'll leave but i dont wanna go. And I'll wait but i can't wait forever. For you to say goodbye.
Well maybe i'm just dreaming, but i know dreams come true. And I'm still here beliveing that god made me for you. If we could just start over, get back where we began. We're better off together, it doesnt have to end.

Om jag hade en gud då skulle jag be- Jag skulle be att du kunde se att jag vill inget ont, jag vill bara väl. Och när jag gör ont då har jag mina skäl. Men inga ord har jag till försvar. Jag bara blundar och önskar att du stannar kvar.
För jag vill ha - ha dig kvar. Jag vill ha, jag vill ha dig kvar. Men ingen gud har jag som förstår. Så min bön är till dig nu innan du går. Vänd om, kom tillbaks, jag ber - stanna kvar. Kom foga ihop dom spillror som är kvar.
Men inga ord har jag till försvar. Jag bara blundar och önskar att du stannar kvar. För jag vill ha dig kvar..


"det var så nära nattis att vi skulle fira ett år..." Vill ha dig tillbaka - Lillen

I keep bleeding.

Datum; 2007-12-05 Tid; 05:10:24
Closed off from love. I didn't need the pain. Once or twice was enough. And it was all in vain. Time starts to pass before you know it you're frozen. But something happened for the very first time with you. My heart melted to the ground, found something true. And everyone's looking round thinking I'm going crazy. But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you. They can try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth. My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing. You cut me open and I keep bleeding. Keep, keep bleeding love.
Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud. Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt. Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling. But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace. And in this world of loneliness I see your face. Yet everyone around me thinks that maybe, I'm going crazy. And it's draining all of me. They find it hard to believe. I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see.
But I don't care what you say, I'm in love with you. You can try to push me away, but you don't know the truth. My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing. You cut me open and I keep bleeding. Keep, keep bleeding love.


And now I try hard to make it. I just want to make you proud. I'm never gonna be good enough for you.. I can't pretend that I'm alright. Cause we lost it all, I guess nothing lasts forever. I'm sorry I can't be perfect. Now it's just too lat, and we can't go back. I'm sorry I can't be perfect. I try not to think about the pain I feel inside. Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me, now seem so far away. And it feels like you don't care anymore. Nothing's gonna change the things that you said. Nothing's gonna make this right again. Please don't turn your back.. I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you. But you just don't understand...

I must have been screaming that was unintentional. I do apologize for the way I feel. So tell me I'm dreaming cause I'm a bit conventional. Don't psychologize, it's no big deal. Come on! Come on! Don't make things difficult. Don't make it hard livin' on. I should love you like I do. I shouldn't love you. But i do...


Vi blev tomma ord, vi gled isär utan att ge varandra tid. Drömmar svävar bort, en kort sekund då ensamheten griper tag. Var minut, var sekund utan dig gör det ont. Natt och dag, går vi runt, bägge två söker svar på den kärlek som vi haft. Varje blick, ger mig hopp, önskar du kunde va här hos mig. Var minut. Jag vill, ej ta farväl. Jag vet att det finns kvar, det som vi hade du och jag.


Nu vet ni vad min kväll har gått åt till. Nejdå. Jag har faktiskt haft riktigt bra sällskap att prata med och kolla på asdåliga program på tv med, tills jag höll på att somna och det var dags att pallra sig hemåt. Sorry vännen, vet att du har skola men vad ska jag göra? I need company. Tack för ikväll!

Saknad och nostalgi.

Datum; 2007-09-07 Tid; 12:49:40
Hennes gröna ögon gör mig matt
hon säger: "ta aldrig nånting för givet"
och vi pratar om vart vi ska just inatt
men jag antar att vi menar hela livet

"Jag vill gå hem med dig." Oj vad länge sen det var. Fortfarande är du kvar. Men skuggorna är bakom oss trots allt.




Du har vunnit och förlorat, du har sett dig själv i spegeln
Du har vaknat i fel säng, du har vart kär
Och framtiden väntade som en farlig gåta
Man har bråttom dit, sen är man där
I en stad som får en att bli större än man är
Men i en ålder som sätter allt på jorden
Jag trodde att jag visste vem jag var och vad jag ville
Men nu skulle jag inte välja dom orden
Vad ska vi göra med vår kärlek som blöder?
Där elden falnar men fortfarande glöder

Kyss.

Losing my ground..

Datum; 2007-09-05 Tid; 11:08:24
Don't know what day it is. What's going on? Is this real? Oh no, no, no.......
I woke up short of breath, but I've still got a long day ahead of me.
I don't know what day it is but tell me 'cuz I gotta know who to be.
Is this me up in the mirror? 'Cuz I thought it was somebody else.
Well it's a realization, when you find out you don't even wanna look at yourself.

Where do I go? What do I do? Who do I turn to? I'm losing my ground...
Who am I now? Where does it end? How did it all begin?
I'm losing my ground

Well, hit my feet, it time to hit the streets and get my life back together again.
Well, this place is all a masquerade, so tell me where in line can I cut in?
Downtown wandering aimlessly around still don't know what I'm tryin' to find.
Well you could flash all the pretty lights in front of me, I still won't see the signs.

What happened to myself? Don't wanna go back there. No, don't wanna go back there...
Who am I now? Where does it end? How did it all begin?
I'm losing my ground..

I'm just a little unwell.

Datum; 2007-09-03 Tid; 12:45:23
Mycket tankar och bråk med mig själv på senaste. Mycket analyser. Inte bra, inte bra alls. Det känns konstigt, jobbigt. Det är jobbigt men jag sysselsätter mig med annat för att glömma. För att inte känna. För att inte känna att hösten kommer.

November, november kommer snart. Och november är alltid jobbigt, och det blir säkert likadant igen. Men det gör ingenting för jag kan inte hålla på sådär längre och jag fattar det, jag fattar. Jag försöker ju, ge mig lite cred för det i alla fall.

Men jag fattar nu, och det kommer bli jobbigare i år för det är så många jag bryr mig om som inte kan falla ner i samma lucka som jag. Och det är färre människor i mitt liv nu. Och jag bryr mig mycket mer om dom. Nej jag fattar verkligen, och jag klarar mig, det gör jag.

Men hösten kommer, och skiten kommer att rivas upp igen och andra människor kommer bli sårade, och kanske därmed även jag. Men snälla, snälla du som läser det här och som känner mig, eller bryr dig om mig. Kanske till och med älskar mig. Snälla, låt mig få vara i svackan och peroiden för mig själv, lägg er inte i och för guds skull få inga likgiltiga, svartsjuka, eller andra känslor. Det kommer inte göra saken lättare och jag kommer definitivt inte klara av det. Och ni betyder för mycket för att släppa.


All day, staring at the ceiling.
Making friends with shadows on my wall.
All night, hearing voices telling me.
That I should get some sleep.
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on, I'm feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown.
And I don't know why.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell.
I know, right now you can't tell.
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired.
I know, right now you don't care.
But soon enough you're gonna think of me,
And how I used to be.

I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell.
I know, right now you can't tell.
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired.
I know right now you don't care.
But soon enough you're gonna think of me,
And how I used to be.
How I used to be.


Remember me...

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